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meow ||::||29 Apr 2002 |07:55am||::||
||:: mood ::|| depressed ||::||

I leave this journal forever.... IM me if you question this reason.....

I ext stage left with a poem.... Please enjoy....

Night the Moon

The ice on the moon is dying,
Dying away to the sea.
The sea of gods and foam,
Burning down in the coldest depths.

The ice is of the apple bloom,
Reaching to stroke it’s master’s fist.
Calm flowing touch,
Only to embrace the need.

Down to the damned the ice falls,
Screaming silently as it sinks.
No one listens or develops,
They are deaf to the light.

The ice is burning with frostbite,
As it kills it’s self till sleep.
No one watches it pass,
Only the moon, only the moon.

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meow ||::||22 Apr 2002 |07:44am||::||
||:: mood ::|| blah ||::||

This journal is dead and rotting......

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Meow ||::||14 Apr 2002 |06:37pm||::||
||:: mood ::|| accomplished ||::||

I wrote another story....

This one has aliens, and such.... But it is a sad story.....

I know it is sorta long....but I put much time and effort into it......I promise you it isn't boring...and If it is.... I am VERY sorry....

Glossary:
Xiqy= The planet of the hapt, also their god. They worship their planet.
Hapt= Human-like species that lives on Xiqy
Liq= Creature that lives in and outside of a Hapt

Life is quite unmerciful )

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||::||14 Apr 2002 |09:15am||::||
Another mad lib

Top 5 Things Never To Do or Say in Public

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5) Never run around with your happy Sahara, saying "My name is Billy Bob Sam Thornton. Call me at 555-5555-5555-555-555."
4) Yell, "Who left the Bill Clinton roll."
3) I can't fart amazingly with my Samul Clyde.
2) Trip on a sappy Hippo. Then break dance it out of my way.

1) "Honey, you make me want to extract DNA until I fall on the floor ."
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meow ||::||14 Apr 2002 |09:09am||::||
I made a madlib......


U.S. Women Gymnasts Win Gold
ATLANTA (AP) -- There was no way Kerri Dick van dyke could walk to the medals ceremony, and there was no way she was going to miss it.
Her coach saw to that.

Bela Karolyi tenderly rolled her up in his big Freakishly disturbing arms and gently set her down next to her MooseTurd.

Dick van dyke, after all, was a big reason they were up there.

'We didn't want to break dance without Kerri,' teammate Amanda Fartknocker said. 'We kept telling her, we couldn't have pooted without her.'

Dick van dyke fought through the pain of a sprained left gallbladder and nailed the final vault at the Olympics on Tuesday night as the Americans won their first U.S. team stork in women's gymnastics. Then she monkeyed in pain.

Before she did, however, she kept her two pancreas on the floor long enough to earn a 9.712, giving the Americans 389.225 points and a hairy edge over the Russians. It was the first time since 1952 that gymnasts from the former Soviet Union didn't win a gold Sandeago when they were twirling
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meow ||::||12 Apr 2002 |02:49pm||::||
||:: mood ::|| geeky ||::||

As some of you know, I am still in 8th grade..... I am going to high school next year.....

I have already planned all that I am going to do my 4 year high schoolness...

/'s mean semester.....

Freshman:
*Science: Intro to Chemistry & Physics
*Math: Algebra 1
*English: English 9
*Social Studies: World history to 1500
*Understanding Computers
*Gym/Health
*Drawing and painting 1

Sophmore:
*Science: Biology 1
*Math: Algebra 2
*English: English 10
*Social Studies: World history from 1500
*Cisco Networking 1
*Programming 1
*Gym/Health

Junior:
*Science: Aquatic Biology and Ecology
*Math: Geometry
*English: English 11
*Social Studies: American History
*Cisco Networking 2
* Programing 2
* Spanish

Senior
*Science: Anatomy & Physiology
*English: English 12
*Psychology/ Photography 1
*Study hall
*Advanced Programming
*Drawing and Painting 2
*Spanish

Sounds fun huh?? ^_^

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meow ||::||10 Apr 2002 |02:45pm||::||
||:: mood ::|| geeky ||::||

Abortion..... Right or wrong?

I, personally..... Think is is right.... A woman should have power over her body.... But some people will say "But that baby could of grown up to be someone"..... So?? MILLIONS of kids die each and everyday..... Kids that have tasted life, only to lose it.... What's wrong with a fetus dying?? It didn't even taste life.....

But then again.... People should be more responsible about sex...... But women don't always get pregnant by their choice..... Rape, what about that? Should you have to suffer through rape, and suffer through pregnancy? That doesn't seem so fair.....

And yet again, (You notice I argue with meself?) A baby IS a human..... and we.....well..... Look here http://thisisacryforhelp.com/comics/eye.htm

That comic is titled "Eye for an eye"...... and is semi perfect for the whole.... uh..... "Eye for an eye" thing.....

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meow ||::||02 Apr 2002 |10:41am||::||
||:: mood ::|| stressed ||::||

After a billion years of people asking me "Why do you hate girls so much?", I have finally decided to answer.....

Think of being trapped inside a coffin.......Deep underground...... That is what it is like to be a girl... You struggle and try so hard to get free... but you can't.... To me, all girls are in coffins.... Some girls coffins are so nicely furniched thatthey don't relize that they are in hell..... My coffin is a wood one.... a wood one that just digs more spilinters into me each time I struggle....

Now that you know why I hate being a girl..... Why do I hate girls in return?

I hate them because they exist...... I hate them because they are to iggnornt to notice they are in a coffin..... Trapped...... I hate the way they talk, walk, look, smell...... I just hate every tiny bit of them....

Now a few girls might post here "Do you hate me?" NO! I don't..... Notice the keyword there "Me"..... I don't hate you, I just hate what you are....... There is a difference in that..... It is like hmmmmmm..... Steak.... Yeah....... you may hate how they mindless slaughter the cow, but you love the steak....... Get it?? I don't hate you for you.... I will probably NEVER hate you.... You and what you are are two different things.....and I will never treat a girl different than a guy...

Now this might bring up questions.... "Do you wanna be a guy?" Maybe, but No.... I want to be sexless....Genderless.... My life was ruined because of sex......because my father lusted for another woman....... SEX RUINS THINGS!!! And I don't want to be bisexual, homosexual, or heterosexual...... AND STOP ASKING ME IF I WANT A PENIS!!!....You know who you are....

Anyway.... Just know that I hate being a girl, and I hate girls...... I don't hate the person on the inside of girls.......and I want to be genderless.......Like a robot..... That would be nice......

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meow ||::||29 Mar 2002 |03:00pm||::||
||:: mood ::|| accomplished ||::||

FINALLY!!

After almost a week of planning, writing and editing ((though the editing might be poor)) I release YET ANOTHER STORY!!

Yes!! This is a story, told by an alien.....on another planet..... The planet, and the concpet is all things that I have created.....and it goes along with the theme that will someday be a novel, or comic or something....

Just show me the story!! )

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meow ||::||29 Mar 2002 |11:37am||::||
||:: mood ::|| contemplative ||::||

Like most kids, I come to question my sexuality...... My conclusion.....


I have none....

Oh sure, I wish I was a guy..... Oh sure I like gay guys..... But Only the snuggling, the huggling...... Hell, If I didn't hate girls so much, I would snuggle with them too.... I mean...... I don't like anyone in a sexual way, and I happen to like snuggling with people....


Though with girls its gross.....I used to snuggle with my mom when I was a kid....and she also had this big boobs that would sorta squich yer back..... Ick....boobs are so gross..... All, hanging there and squishy....... >_< I'm gonna barf..... ANYWAY

Sexuality.... Ever since I was a little kid, I would fall in love with cartoon chars..... Yes yes... I had a crush on genie from Alladin, pinochio from that one disney flick......tak from the theif and the cobbler, sonic, knuckles..... THE LIST GOES ON!!

It seems, though I hate all sexual contact, that I happen to like those in my RPs, comcis, video games....more than those in the real world. Why? Because THEY ARE MY REAL WORLD!! Everytime I set down a comic I was reading, or turn off a video game I was playing, or walk away from the computer, I feel as if I am walking into a FAKE world!!

THAT IS RIGHT!!! Everything in the real world is FAKEEE!! You, right now, YOU ARE FAKE!! Unless I interact with you on the computer, then you are real.....

Oh dear, seems we have gotten off topic...... Oh well..... Just remember that Yer fake and real, I'm nonsexual, and I love comics/videogames/computers.........

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meow ||::||27 Mar 2002 |04:32pm||::||
||:: mood ::|| enraged ||::||

RARRRRRRRR!!

Below is a chat on furc.... some people making fun of my character's butterfly wings.... WHY ARE PEOPLE SO UNPLEASENT?!?!??!?!

I hope highschool isn't like this.... )

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meow ||::||27 Mar 2002 |06:28am||::||
||:: mood ::|| aggravated ||::||

I don't like Rap..... A lot of girls here do, though....

WHY?!?! The rap songs are mostly "Smack up my whore and rape her up the ass. Treat her like she is a tissue, throw her away when I'm done"

It makes me tsk..... Yes it does.... Girls have been growing up learning that they are just THERE for men....... Stupid losers, can't figure out what's best for them......

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Bum bum bum ||::||26 Mar 2002 |06:36am||::||
||:: mood ::|| amused ||::||

Yesterday I brought rasins into science class, and dumped them down this kid's shirt. It was funny the way he was all "ARGHHH THERE'S RASINS DOWN MY SHIRT!!"

And He threw em at this girl who was laughing at him.....and he went to the bathroom to remove rasins.... While he was gone, a couple of girls filled his plan book with Rasins, even the pockets in the back....... And he threw them at everyone in the room.....

It was great....... The Sub teacher wasn't paying attention until the whole class was practiclly throwing rasins, and she said "Please, Stop throwing Rasins at each other and sit down"

I think it's funny because you RARELY hear that line in Science class.......eheheh..... I bad....

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meow ||::||24 Mar 2002 |10:59am||::||
||:: mood ::|| cheerful ||::||

This is part of an RP I did yesterday on furc... Eci is my char, and Kalyybah is someone else's char. I think it is cute because Eci has been a slave all his life, and now finally loves him for him....... Eci is also mushy and cries a lot.... >_ < He doesn't act like a Drow should....

Eci wraps his arms around her, starting to silently cry. He buries his head in her shoulder, crying::

Kalyybah begins to stroke his hair again, purring gently.

Eci keeps crying, wrapping his tail around kay. He nuzzles kaly's neck, sniffling a little::

Kalyybah murmurs soft assurances, every few seconds kissing his hair gently.

Eci starts to calm down, purring lightly. He seems to feel better at the snuggling of his friends::

Kalyybah relaxes as she feels Eci starting to calm, not realizing how tense she had been.

Kalyybah pulls back slightly, still keeping her arms around Eci, and glances up to Lucky. She gives a slight, weak smile, still shaken, then nuzzles Eci's hair.

Eci pulls away a little. He stares into kaly's eyes, looking down for a moment as he thinks. He returns his gaze to her eyes, blinking every now and then::

Kalyybah pulls back just enough so that she can see his face, her gaze still worried. "Are you going to be okay?"

Eci he nods lightly, leaning towards her to kiss her lips. He flattens his ears back as he kisses her, feeling akward and as if violating her, but his emotions over power his thoughts::

Kalyybah is frozen for a moment, her mind stunned. Then her eyes drift closed as she returns the kiss. Her arms tighten around him and her purring grows stronger.

Eci wraps his arms around her as well, relaxing now that he knows he isn't angering her. He strokes her back lightly, deepening the passion in the kissHis has a purr of his own, though it is soft than hers::

Kalyybah trembles slightly at the emotions that rush through her. Her paws clutched tightly at the back of his tunic, her heart thudding in her ears.

Eci pulls his lips away a moment, sliding them down to her ear. He leans a little closer, twitching his wings as she clutches his tunic. He whispers lightly in her ear, though the words are a bit clumsy:: I love you......

Kalyybah starts in shock at his words, their impact muddling her thoughts. She pulls back enough to meet his gaze, her own searching and full of something much different than laughter. Something sparks in her eyes and a smile flashes. "I love you, too."

Eci eyes glaze over a little, seeming that he just gained the world. He smiles softly, leaning over to nuzzle her. He can't help but smile, feeling that an emptiness is finally filled::

Kalyybah buries her head in his neck, returning the nuzzle and purring gently. Her breath comes almost raggedly, her form still trembling slightly. Her gaze is bright with joy and love and she gives a sigh of utter contentment.

Eci hugs her closer, so she is almost in his lap. He blushes, breathing gently. He ears stay back, and wings folded. He seems to be basking in her glow, keeping her close::

Kalyybah shifts forward and to the side so that she is in his lap and resting against his chest. Her head fits perfectly just under his chin. Her arms draw up against her body, putting her fully in the circle of his. She sighs once more, her eyes closing as she is warmed by the protected and loved feeling his arms give her.

Eci smiles lightly down at her, resting her head slightly under his chin. He runs his hand along her back again, giving her a loving squeeze of a hug. He shifts so she can fit easier in his lap, still thinking of her first in everything::

Kalyybah tilts her head to look up at him, a sort of loving wonder in her eyes as she seems to memorize every feature of his face. She reaches up to stroke his cheek gently, giving him a feathery kiss beneath his chin. She smiles, her face almost glowing. "You talked."

Eci he slowly stares at her with sad eyes. He clumsily whispers again, pausing with each breath:: I do not use my voice....but...... I use my breath to speak.... ::This whispering is rather light, him having to lean close for her to hear. He makes a soft squeak and kisses her ear lovingly, moving down to kiss along her jaw. It seems that it doesn't matter what part of her he kisses, he is in love with all of her::

Kalyybah's gaze saddens slightly and she nods, though at his kisses small shivers pass through her body, and her eyes drift closed once more. A part of her idly notes that it's a good thing she's sitting because her arms and legs have almost stopped working, though she still managed to stroke his face gently, lovingly tracing its lines.

Eci smiles lightly at her as she traces his face, and possibly the marking under his eyes. He brings her forward a little with an arm, so she doesn't lose balance. He let's her do as she likes, purring lightly. He tail slowly snakes behind her, the stinger inside the tip so he doesn't hurt her""

Kalyybah opens her eyes, again drinking his face in almost hungrilly. She does trace the scars, frowning slightly as if wishing she could smooth them away with her touch. Her fingers trail lightly down his face, brushing his lips. She shifts so she can reach them with her own, both hands lifting to cup his face as she kisses him again, gently, relishing her ability just to touch him.

Eci makes a little noise, moving his hands to rest them on her shoulders. He deepens the kiss, gently nibbling her lip. His breath is light, and has a strange butterflish feeling in his stomach.

Kalyybah's purring increased until it rumbled through both their bodies. Her breath caught as he nibbled her lip, her hands moving down to his chest, claws half-extending and kneading gently. An odd warmth was spreading through her body, her thoughts becoming less and less coherent beyond the fact that he was there, with her.

Eci shivers a little as her purring runs through his body. Shivers seem to plague him now, a new one starting each time she touches him, but he likes it. He let's her move her hands where she wishes, his own thoughts fogged up by emotion. He makes a light noise in his throat, moving his gentle hand to her neck, running it down slowly, letting it glide across her flesh. His hand stops when it hits her collar, and he leans foreward to lightly kiss it, caress it softly::

Kalyybah gasps softly as his gentle touch seems to trail fire across her skin. She gives a breathless sigh at the kiss, her head tilting back slightly. Her hands move around to his back, massaging and caresing. She leans down to kiss his forehead, but then begins to trail kisses down his face, catching his ear in her teeth before dropping to his neck, her tongue lapping gently.

Eci makes a soft noise, grunting lightly as she massages his back. He moves his hands down her hands slowly, a blush forming on his face as she nips his ear and licks him.. He makes a soft whine, but not from pain or frustration. His breath becomes a little more labored, trailing his hands down to rest them on her thighs. His fingers twitch slightly, pressing them gently into the muscles of her thigh::

Kalyybah clutched his back as his hands reach her thighs, her purring rumbling through them again. She pressed her forehead against the curve between his neck and shoulder, trying to catch her breath. The lightness in her head certainly wasn't from a lack of oxygen, but the sheer power of the emotions in her mind threatened to sweep her away. She breathed in his scent, also imprinting it in her memory, her hands once again kneading the muscles of his back. She nuzzled him gently, making soft mewling noises.


Eci grunts a little, a shiver running through him as he feels her rumbling purr. He lightly strokes her as she pressed her head to his neck. His own breath is deep and labored, starting to lightly sweat from the tension of their closeness. He makes a soft whimper as she kneads his back, making a soft whimper of pleasure. He slowly leans forward to nibble her ear, licking at the sensitive part of her neck::

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meow ||::||24 Mar 2002 |10:12am||::||
||:: mood ::|| contemplative ||::||
||:: music ::|| Effiel 65- Move your body ||::||



You notice how people don't like cats as much as dogs?? How those people say cats are stupid?? I know why...

People get frustrated that they can't fully tame a cat. They get angry that the cat can't do a job that other furry pets do. A dog plays, comes when it is called and is generally obeident to a sickening level.

Cats are independant.......Humans don't like that...... If you look at history, you see there is generally one major urge that has changed our world into what it is today.... CONTROL. Control is what keeps us going.... Animals wouldn't have been domesticated if humans lacked an urge to control.

This brings us back to cats.... cats are like us in a way, they thirst for freedom. They do things when THEY want to do them, like us.... This angers humans, we want control. And when we don't get control, we get angry and react with hate, no matter how light or strong it may be. It shows a lot in the world when you really think about it.

We give up on things when we think we can not overcome them, control them. Maybe we should try to start working together, living together without resulting in anger. We can still try to control, that is human nature, impossible to break, but we could try to be a little more accepting.

Think about it......

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meow ||::||23 Mar 2002 |01:22pm||::||
||:: mood ::|| geeky ||::||

BLOODDD!!!!! BLOOODDDDDDDDD!!!! I NEED YER BLODDDDDDDDD



Today I talk of CHUPACABRAS!!! Yes..... I drew one up there..... *points* I think he soooooo cute!! *huggles it, and it bitten* ANYWAY!!! *bleeds* Let us continue!!

Chupacabra....... The dictionary definition of it is:.................
Um...... Well...... It appears there is no definition of it.......... @_@;;

ANYWAY!! From my knowledge, the chupacabra is a blood sucking animal that is thought to be an alien. It's name is spanish, meaning "Goat sucker"..... NO!!! Don't think dirty!!! Sucking as in BLOOD sucking........sick weirdos...... >.>;;

Ummm..... Here is one site's info on a Chupacabra............Chupacabras are goat sucking, nocturnal alien
panthers who've been stranded years ago on earth.
They can fly, evade much human detection
And have intrigued the paranormal community
and Hispanic America for years. Origionally
discovered in puerto rico, and since mostly seen
in Miami, Mexico, and the Southwest U.S.,
Chupacabras are rapidly replacing yetis and
the loch ness monster as the most popular
legendary monsters on planet earth...
Maybe Beyond.


THEY ARE REAL!!!!

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Meow ||::||21 Mar 2002 |07:21am||::||
||:: mood ::|| annoyed ||::||

Last night I had possibly the gorest dream ever..... It was strange and RP-like....but there was some sort of pain EVERY damn minute.... Like when my char had to crawl under these trees to avoid this crazy lady, my char had bloody knees and hands after that....because their was glass under the pineneedles..... ((I had to crawl under a bunch of pine trees))

And then.... this one part...whee this crazy lady was sitting on a couch in the middle of a yard.....and another lady, somebody's mom....had to sit on the couch until midnight....... at midnight, the crazy lady would killl her...... But the mom lady ended up struggling over the gun/knife (It was awsome!! just like a movie!!)) and she shoot the crazy ladty in the head.....there was brains everywhere!! and the crazy ladies head looked like a flower..... and it was just plain gory....

And someother things happened...but I don't remember them as well.....like intestines falling out....eyes being squished while still in their socket....tounges being cut out.... legs being broken......

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meow ||::||21 Mar 2002 |07:15am||::||
||:: mood ::|| content ||::||



BWAHAHAHA!! I did something funny the other day after school!! Ok...... Cat, Tom and I were all sitting in the back of this thing called break out..... And tom and I had mini Water bottles......We were filling u the cap and dumping the cap water on each other.... But then a poke holes in the bottom of mine, and spray him and cat.... But after a while... I lean over and srpay a whole lot between his legs!! And he has this HUGEEEE wet spot.....and a whole lotta kids crack up and I'm laughing so hard I can't breath..... And tom is all "Ima keel yo someday!!"

Ahhhhh......It was great!!

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meow ||::||20 Mar 2002 |09:04pm||::||
||:: mood ::|| artistic ||::||

I thought I would update my journal with art for now on......BECAUSE I WANT LOVE!!! I WANT PEOPLE TO LIKE MY ART!! *pathetic* Yes.... i am lame...we all know that....



This is Stan....from the Game Okage:The Shadow King....Stan is mah second favorite char, I think Ari, the main char, is sexxxxxxy. Heheehheh *loser* Anyway..... STAN IS THE TRUE EVIL KING!! Although that weird floaty evil king was sorta cute... *gets whacked by a flying train* ARGHHHH

Anyway... The flames, were drawn by me....but colored in by a friend of mine, Luara... She was all "Pleaseee...can I color?? I wanna colorrrrr..... I let you call me a poop and stuff". So I let her color..... I mean...I always say she has a little head ((SHE DOES!! She has this little head...)) and I say that she smells/looks/dances like poo and stuff..... eheheeh....

YOU WOULDn'T OF KNOWN THAT IF I DIDN'T TELL YOU!! <--- Jade qoute

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meow ||::||20 Mar 2002 |07:02am||::||
||:: mood ::|| pleased ||::||

Has anyonenotcied the ungodly amount of test thingys in the LJs? They are annoying.... I mean, Lakini had the balls to tell everyone that they annoyed him, and he was going to unfriend those who choke his friend page with the test thingy....

Oh sure, they may be good to add a little visualness to yer LJ......But they over crowd LJs, and it gets annoying for people like me, who have a billion friends LJs they must read.......

So I give Lakini a pat on the back for finally speaking up about it....yah got balls, man....

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meow ||::||19 Mar 2002 |10:57am||::||
||:: mood ::|| gloomy ||::||

I was listening to songs made in the past...and a story about an old couple..... The story was about the old couples life, from death to birth.....and how they are forgotten, their tombstone a play thing in a garden.


A grieving mother weeps for her child,
One condemned to frigid soil.
This shows how we pass,
and how some never toil.

You live and die,
Only to be forgotten.
We disappear into the earth,
and soon our tombstone has also rottened.

Life is short,
Shorter for the child faded away.
Hug your loved one close,
For they may be gone someday.

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Meow ||::||19 Mar 2002 |07:13am||::||
||:: mood ::|| lazy ||::||





Ummm..... Hi..... I got a haircut, and my Webcam is a bitch....... I will take more piccies later....

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Meow ||::||18 Mar 2002 |10:18pm||::||
||:: mood ::|| depressed ||::||

Each and everyday I become more Aware.....More intelligent. It saddens me.

With each new gaining of knowledge, I climb the mountain of life. I already now look over people, I am about to see almost all that is around me. And I find it depressing. I realize life and it's bleakness...... I now know why Jhonen speaks of intelligence and life the way he does....I am finally able to see past his gore, humor and such...and into the TRUE meaning of his messages.... I find myself becoming more and more like Wobbly headed Bob....and I feel his pain....

It isn't easy being intelligent.... You are aware of how people are instead a bubble....unable to see the harsh reality..... It saddens me......This world Saddens me...... that is why I retreat into my world of fiction......My created world....

I want to be alone.... Alone with those deserving of a glance.... Alone with my mind..... I do not wish to be a part of reality....

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meow ||::||17 Mar 2002 |09:12am||::||
||:: mood ::|| blah ||::||
||:: music ::|| Danzig - Don't Be Afraid ||::||

Well..... I must go on that "LOVELY' 4 hour trip.......yay..... I will work more on Li's char design...and draw more frank fanart..... Maybe some Zed and DEll fanart too...they cool....

Zed is all cool and stuff..frank is all cute...and Dell is just.. pass out cute... meow.....

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meow ||::||17 Mar 2002 |08:37am||::||
||:: mood ::|| irritated ||::||
||:: music ::|| Danzig - Hint Of Her Blood ||::||

For three days I had this relating dream.....

But sadly I forgot most of it....

Each dream was different....the first was about Equality....the second about Slavery.....the second about life and death.... It had all the same characters.....same world... ((All my dreams are like an RP, or a video game))

Each one had it's own message.....God I wish I could remember and write it down..... I work up in a sweat they left such strong messages..... Fuck...Why can't I remmeber?

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Meow ||::||17 Mar 2002 |08:23am||::||
||:: mood ::|| jubilant ||::||
||:: music ::|| Danzig - Blackacidevil ||::||

I bought a ton of magic the gathering cards the other day.... and a CD that tells you all the stuff about it...... It is still a little confusing..... but I know how to RP.... I got it cause jim was all "I have magic cards, why don't you get a deck too?? I can teach you to play" and I was all.. ok.....

I also got a CD by "Danzig".... Their music is sorta "RARRRARARARARRRRR".... and they sing about gothy/satany stuff.... I like the music.... and the lyrics are so overpowered by thee music, you can't hear them... I bought their CD because I was at best buy and wanted to get a random CD.... meow...

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||::||14 Mar 2002 |09:28pm||::||
Sanguinary Alien (9:28:27 PM): *licks lips* Mmmmm Mmmmmm better! *colgate smile while advertising new campbells soup* NOW IN BABY FLAVOR!!
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meow ||::||14 Mar 2002 |06:08am||::||
I changed my AIM name........ It means "Blood thirsty Alien"




Sanguinary Alien: The Dark and Lovely?
Sins devide: YHEA WHAT YOU DO NOIT LIKE THE DARK AND LOVELY
Sanguinary Alien: I don't know what it is
Sins devide: ARE YOU A GOTH

Sanguinary Alien: No
Sins devide: SO WHT THE HELL WHERE YOU DOING IN THE CHAT ROOM
Sanguinary Alien: I'm not in any chat room.....
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meow ||::||14 Mar 2002 |06:03am||::||
REAL stupid hospital reports:

The patient refused autopsy.

The patient has no previous history of suicides.

Discharge status: Alive but without my permission.

Patient had waffles for breakfast and anorexia for lunch.

She is numb from her toes down.

While in ER, she was examined, x-rated and sent home.

The skin was moist and dry.

Examination of genitalia reveals that he is circus sized.

Skin: somewhat pale but present.

Patient has two teenage children, but no other abnormalities.
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Which tarot card are you?
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Which Computer Component Are you?

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Which "Natural Wonder" are you?

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meow ||::||14 Mar 2002 |05:42am||::||
||:: mood ::|| quixotic ||::||

This has to be the stupidest poem EVER!!! I was inspired to write it when I was walking to home....and I stepped on a stick.... and it shook when I stepped on it...... So I went home to write a poem about a stepped on stick.....


Dear lord I need a life......

Why do you giggle and sniggle?
When I tremble with uprising fear.
I do it every single time,
Every time you come near.

You laugh when I groan,
When I groan and quake.
For you would also do this,
If you feared you would break.

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meow ||::||13 Mar 2002 |06:45am||::||
||:: mood ::|| scared ||::||


Amelia Stoner drew this.. DON'T STEAL

Isn't that picture FREAKY?!?!? I cringe and say "It's watching meeee" everytime I see it....

Brrrrr...... It makes me get goosebumps...... I would rather see an intestines covered hungry T-Rex, a guy with a chainsaw and hockey mask, or a bus full of old people than to EVER see THAT thing staring at me....

I went down to the basement one early morning...and my little tiny dog was down there...sitting on the floor.....staring at me.......It's eyes shone a little.... it's small body half eaten by the dark.... IT WAS FREAKY!!! It just stood there....watching..... That sorta thing scares me...ehehhe... *dork* Maybe that is why dolls scare me.....

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Meow ||::||12 Mar 2002 |10:00pm||::||
||:: mood ::|| sleepy ||::||

I wrote a poem..... It is supposed to be sad and emotional.... You can tell it is about a relationship I once had.....one so strong that only death could break it.....and death did.....

Can you remember the old days?
Can you remember the new?
Of course you can't,
There isn't much you can do.

Why must you be floored six,
While I am up above?
I never got to despise you,
Never got to love.

I know it was long ago,
But how I miss your blood.
I miss the vigor of it,
That living flower bud.

You slipped away from me,
You fell into the dark.
We had the pyre cradled,
All we needed was one spark.

But those were the old days,
Back when you had gore.
My eyes can not replace it,
No, not anymore.

I weep for the past,
And wish it wasn't so.
I weep for your fingers,
And they way I had to let them go.

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BLUEEEEEEEEEE
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meow ||::||11 Mar 2002 |06:26am||::||
||:: mood ::|| sick ||::||

Been sick since thursday........ Urggle....

I had fatigue.....and I would get extremly hot and extremly cold at the same time... I had heaache and I coughed a whole lot..... The hurt kinda cough where it burns your lungs and you gag and stuff...... I also had a fever of 101....

>_< I hate getting sick......

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Made by many not-so-well-known companies you really don't get the praise or popularity you deserve. Fruit, refreshing, and orange. Now if you weren't caffeine-free I might drink more of you.
Find your inner cola.
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Take the High Yield Killing Method Test Now!!
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meow ||::||07 Mar 2002 |03:34pm||::||
||:: mood ::|| weird ||::||

Everytime I look out my window.... I see like five ladies pushing their babies around in a stroller..... I mean.... jeez... Never knew there was so many babies around here......

I hate babies....

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meow ||::||07 Mar 2002 |06:07am||::||



You are the classic yellow squeeky toy.

Find your inner rubber ducky.
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meow ||::||05 Mar 2002 |06:50am||::||
||:: mood ::|| creative ||::||



LOOK MA!!! I MADE ONE!!!

*feels egotisical*

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meow ||::||05 Mar 2002 |06:23am||::||
||:: mood ::|| annoyed ||::||

Have you ever noticed how some people make fun of people who have low paying jobs in factories, cleaning and building things?? Have you??

I think that is sorta wrong.... Why?? Because those people make up the foundation of our world..... Without them.... Where wpould the buildings come from?? How would the schools and such stay clean?? Where would we get our computers and other such things from??

This country was built on the backs of immigrants and hard workers.... And what were they?? The low paid citizens of america......

But why must we pay them the least?? The do plenty of hard work... and some live in horrible... poor places...... Because people don't care.... People don't care that a little girl is dying now.... People don't care that another little girl is being raped right now.... People don't care that a little boy just lost his father.... Or that a man just lost his job and has to go home to tell his family the bad news....

People just don't care...... They are too busy with their own lives to try and help others.... I mean... one small thing, no matter how small, CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE!! I'm not saying to ruin your life worrying over everyone.... but people should stop every now and then.... Just stop and help someone up to their feet, someone who had stumbled on the road of life.

.....Please shoot me and my stupid babbling self..... I make no sense.....

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meow ||::||04 Mar 2002 |06:36am||::||




You're "brb". You're always busy, you don't have time for people.


What internet slang are YOU? | by brit
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meow ||::||03 Mar 2002 |02:26pm||::||
||:: mood ::|| high ||::||

"Looks like we are in trouble, bad trouble" -kid from flipper

Stupiddddd kid..... is there a gooood trouble or something??

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meow ||::||03 Mar 2002 |11:40am||::||
||:: mood ::|| gloomy ||::||



Iggnorance is the most obvious... In the front..Iggnorance is not bad, but can form into Stupidity..... It is connected with Stupidity... not the same...but almost... And Iggnorance connected with Stupidity, added with misunderstanding, leads to cruelty... and with all these things together you get a human... Why is it a tounge?? Tounges get things trapped in them... that's what causes bad breath... people get things stuck in them,emotions and such... and they turn sour... The whole picture is called humanity.....

I drew that early yesterday.... Just because it is true....

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meow ||::||03 Mar 2002 |11:31am||::||
||:: mood ::|| annoyed ||::||

ATTENTION EVERYONE WHO POSTED AT THAT PERSON'S OEKAKI BOARD:

She just doesn't want other people on her board..... And please do not insult her anymore.... How would you like f that happened to you?? You wouldn't now would you?

We have to look from her point of view as well.... She just wants us to leave her alone....Not to flame her.....

Being angry never solved anything.... It can't.... It can only make things worse.... You see?? You see?? We are blindly forming into the things that make us twitch...the things I dub as humans.... WE ARE NOT HUMAN!!

Human is a dirty filthy word I use to label the common Homo sapien...... WE MUST BE ABOVE THAT!! Humans hate, and hurt... do stupid things..... WE MUST BE MATURE!!

And I'm not saying we can't be angry at times.... We all slip..... But look...... I apoligized to that girl.... She doesn't deserve to be flamed.... She is only defending herself... Don't hate her for that....

http://oekakies.com/p/Nitocris/p.cgi

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meow ||::||02 Mar 2002 |04:31pm||::||
||:: mood ::|| irritated ||::||

I drew on someone's Oekaki board..... I thought I would be friendly or whatever..... I thought I would draw a snakey thing....because the person seemed to like snakes.....And I added my site URL. and I was like "Shameless Self Promotion"... Just friendly kidding arounf...and what does sh do?? Deletes it...then posts a picture with the desc about me of:

some senseless fuckwit fed the board SPAM.
NO! BAD! NO! their contribution has already been deleted. i don't know how they found this board, but this board is obviously not intended for anyone but me and my friends, and ESPECIALLY not for self promoting SHIT like the deleted 'art'
so if the 'artist' comes back and sees this, please take your business elsewhere before i stab safety pins into your retinas until you acquire a modicum of good taste
good night, and god bless.


She only thinks about her point of view...Not mine..... She has a right to be mad... But not call me a Fuckwit....

I am not a fuckwit... I am an Assfuck.... Please get it right....

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||:: mood ::|| enraged ||::||

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RARRRRRRR I HATE CH'MARR!!! HATEEEEEEEEE RARRR!! IU TRY MY FUCKING BESSSSTTT TO PLEASE VCL AND WHAT DOES HE DO!?!?!?! "Blah blah you... you did this... blah"

Rar.... I like Snout better.... GRRRRRR!!! Vcl is ok.. BUT CH'MARR IS NOTTTTT!!

And I can bitch about him ALL I FUCKING WNAT IN MY LJ!!! HAAHAHAHAH!!! CAUSE IT'S NOT AT VCL!!! WATCH ME FUCK HIM UP THE ASS BITCH FUCK SHIT DAMN BASTARD!!! I mean.... Watch me annoy him by... BREAKING ALL THE DESC RULES HERE!!

omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omgomg!! HE IS AN ASS!!

HeY Ch'MaRr.... Do YoU lIkE tHiS??!!?

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